If I Had Known It Was Goodbye
Oh Robert Martinez… if I had known last Friday was the last time I would see you, I would have stayed so much longer. I replay those moments in my head over and over—the laughter, the conversations, the quiet smiles that only you could give. I’m so grateful that some of our classmates were able to visit and pray with you; those moments will forever be etched into my heart. They were simple, yet they meant everything. I will cherish them for the rest of my life, because now they have become sacred memories of you.
It’s hard to put into words the heaviness that sits on my chest. Life feels so unfair when someone so genuine, so full of light, is taken too soon. The thought of not receiving another message, not hearing your voice, not sharing another memory feels unbearable.
The Moments I’ll Miss the Most
Robert, I’ll miss so many things about you—your late-night “you up” messages, the way you always managed to bring a smile to my face, the conversations that stretched on until the early hours of the morning. Those little things, the ones we often take for granted, are now treasures I would give anything to experience again.
You were more than a friend—you were family. You brought comfort when I felt alone, laughter when I felt heavy, and hope when life seemed uncertain. That’s who you were: a giver of love, of kindness, of light. You didn’t just touch lives, you changed them. Your absence will be deeply felt by everyone who had the privilege of knowing you.
Until We Meet Again
Saying goodbye doesn’t seem real, and truthfully, I don’t want to say goodbye. I’d rather believe you’re still just one message away, that maybe tonight I’ll see your name light up on my phone. But in my heart, I know you’re at peace, resting in a place where there is no more pain or suffering.
Robert, I promise your memory will live on. In every story we tell, every laugh we share in your honor, every tear we shed missing you—you will be there. You’ve left a mark on my life that nothing can erase, and for that I am endlessly grateful.
